I shouldn't be typing this. My computer shouldn't even be on. I should be in bed, doped up to the eyeballs with various industrial strength cold medicines fighting this bloody Martian cold which has seen fit to rob me of two work days. I've got so much to do yet, I've been sat in my room all day with my halogen heater turned on full blast which will probably mean my house will incur a electricity bill this quarter that will be larger than the GNP of several third world countries. All this while wearing enough clothing that one would think that I'm mounting a expedition to mount Everest whiles sweating like long distance runner.
In short, I feel like poo:( And i don't have time to feel like poo.
I've got plots for three short stories that I have to have nailed down before the end of the week. Then I have to re-read "The strange case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde" so that I can re assess which passages I wish to make illustrations out of for the second time. Then I have to comb through my second year work to decide which of my projects I have time to redo for the sake of my portfolio and my end of year show. And at some point I have make a trip to the Netherlands for the sake of my final major project (Sketchbook and camera in tow). Then I have to start producing the illustrations for the final major project so that i can have it done, scanned, printed for my portfolio, laid out in book format, uploaded to
lulu printed and bound and sent back to me in time for my end of year show which, this year will be held in held in a gallery in central London. So not too much pressure on that front!
Shit. I really can't afford to be sick. I'm going to go to bed now and pray that I'll be well enough to make my way into uni tomorrow. The studio opens a 8.30am normally and closes at 7.30. Thankfully the library is open until 1145pm so I'll try to reclaim some of the time lost.
I'm not complaining mind you. This post, more that anything is an opportunity for me to empty my head for various niggly things so that I can concentrate on more important matters. I find that If I don't articulate things i end up worrying and stressing myself out. Which I really don't need. Not now anyway.
I've finally come to accept that my biggest failing is that I always give myself more work that i can possible accomplish. And that I rarely live up to my own expectations. Ambition is good thing. But I've consistently bitten off more than I can every possiblily chew.
No, that analogy isn't correct. Let me think for a moment. Ah yes!
I've consistently cooked a HUGE meals for myself that found I've been completely unable to eat when cooked. There. That's better. That fits. The name of the game is to do something small, which is within your capability to complete
WELL and in the time you have available. Aim for earth orbit before you even
think about aiming for the moon.
Anyway. I've said enough. I'm away to bed. See you later. Hopefully my copy of The
Stonecutter will turn up at some point tomorrow. We'll see.
GOODNIGHT.